Praise You While I Wait

Lately I feel like God has been trying to teach me something and I have not really figured it out till about nowish. Something that does not feel natural for me. Something that I resisted at first; to be honest. God sets all these amazing looking things like graduating college with a BA in Mechanical Engineering, courting and marrying the girl He has for me, or just becoming more than I am now, on the horizon and gives me glimpses of them through other people. Then He says wait on me and the problem immediately comes for me when I desire to be there at that point, doing that and I am not. I get frustrated that I can see it, but can't have it yet. It's like spending the summer staffing with WorldView Academy and getting a glimpse of heaven or watching a young dad take his daughter out for a walk in the fall leaves. I want to be in heaven; If blessed with children when I'm married I want to take them for walks in the autumn. Clash-Clash goes my heart, emotions, and thoughts. How can a good God show me that and say wait? How can my Savior let me feel torn in two directions wanting to please both?

And I decided the best way to go about figuring what Christ wants me to do in the place I am in was to investigate scripture and read what He has written. I found a common thread of praising God while being in your circumstance. In the middle of my hectic college week I found that while it may seem weird to me, it actually works and brings grace. Worrying about my finals looming large ahead I have committed to praising Him everyday. Some days I do not want to. Some days I doubt God and his promise never to leave me or forsake me and it is during my time of praise that He whispers to me that even if there are clouds the sun is still there and shining on me. I see that father walking in the leaves with his daughter and I choose to praise God instead of wanting to be there. It is a conscience choice I must make ever time. God is letting me see different awesome things ahead in life to bring me to Him. He has best in store for me just as a loving father. He shows me and says, wait on me and I will come through for you. But in the meantime I choose to praise Him where I am.

Patience young one.

A friend shared a song with me recently that speaks right on this issue. Dessert Song by Hillsong:

This is my prayer in the desert
And all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in my hunger and need
My God is the God who provides

And this is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flames

Chorus:
And I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

And this is my prayer in the battle
When triumph is still on it's way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand

All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

This is my prayer in the harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be emptied again
The seed I've recieved I will sow

Logistical Update
It is the last week of instruction of winter quarter and things are flying fast and furious. By the end of the week it will all be done and past me! Next week brings finals in CALC 3 and PHYS 201 which will be fun. The calculus final is going to be very hard, based on previous exams. Think of Taylor series for like 40% of the test. (gasp!) I expect the physics final to be really good. My professor loves his topic and it shows on his tests. In other news, I have survived leading CRU for the first quarter and I am looking to next quarter and seeing where God will take us! It is a hard spot to have, but He is teaching me through it and forming me. Praise Him! Lastly, the carboard bike is coming along really well in solidworks!